A Good Omen, Indeed!

With the city turned into a hill station, having no sun to welcome the new year, I lie down lazily on the couch and look out the window. I, frequently wipe the glass to get rid of the mist and look beyond to the lush green trees dancing along the tunes of the winter winds. A flight of pigeons passes by on the vast blue canvas.

My eyes are now dreamy and too mesmerized by the view to do anything but look away. It’s probably like love at a sight, I feel like wanting to write something beautiful. But I’m unable to write. I want my words to flow like raindrops meandering down the window pane creating the beautiful patterns of love, hope and promises yet to be fulfilled. But, I’m so glued to the view that my eyes refuse to shift to the notepad on my desk. I guess, that’s what love is, in the most truest sense- To be engrossed in the moment to feel it deep inside, moving and tickling our every sensibility, and opening our heart completely to the moment, and not be disturbed by the other thoughts passing by, no matter what.

Well, I guess, I fell in love with the view that nature had to offer me on the very first day of the new year. I’ll take it as a good omen. Indeed!

Every Saint Has A Past.. Every Sinner Has A Future!

At times in life we lose our ability to decide on what is right and what is wrong. We end up doing things which weren’t meant to have been done. But, that doesn’t mean that we are not the same person anymore by heart. We are never taught how to go about life at different stages. The smart asses get their way out perfectly at all times.. But some jerks like me stumble a few times before we get our way out.

A few days back.. That wasn’t the way my thought process worked, to be frank! I was equally judgemental of the blunders I had committed till now. But a very dear friend gave me this new perspective towards the whole idea. And now I realise, life is not about crying over what happened or the wrong decisions we made.. Life is about what we learn from them and how we make the journey more beautiful. It’s about looking at the prettier things that life has to offer. No matter how big the blunder was.. Or how bad our life got affected by the decision we made.. Unless we make peace with it and find closure within, the world will not let make peace with it too. All we need to do is drop the baggage and move ahead. With a pure heart and good intentions, I believe, we could still move the world around!

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I read this a long time ago.. But in real, today I understood its meaning..

‘I don’t know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive himself or herself. Because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, ‘Well, if I’d known better I’d done better,’ that’s all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, ‘I’m sorry,’ and then you say to yourself, ‘I’m sorry.’ If we hold on to the mistake, we can’t see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can’t see what we’re capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one’s own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that’s rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don’t have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we never are able to live the life that god has planned for us.’ 

-Maya Angelou

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Breathe Out A Bit Of Love!

It was just like a usual evening and I had gone for a run at the city park after a long day’s work. As I parked my car and got out with my earphones plugged in my iPod and music bursting loud, I was stopped on my way by two little kids. They weren’t keeping well and asked me for some money. I told them that I’ll buy them food, but on a condition- they button up their shirts and wash their face. They immediately rushed towards the Shiv temple which was a few steps away and splashed water on their face from the water cooler. Meanwhile, I bought a few biscuits from a small departmental store and moved towards them. The smile on their faces moved me. I hadn’t seen them before, yet the joy in their eyes was quite satisfying for me, that moment. I gave them the biscuits and headed off to the park for my jog. It was a good end to my day.

Eventually, from that day on, meeting those two kids became a regular affair. I started to keep a few packets of biscuits in my car itself for them. The kids kept them clean, with their shirts buttoned up everyday. Smart chaps they were. The moment they used to see my car getting parked at the usual spot, they would come running. And frankly, even my eyes used to be in search of them as I stepped out everyday. Unknowingly, we’d somehow become friends.

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Well, today wasn’t one of my ‘best days’ in record- a long day at work and a quarrel with a colleague. Though I was very tired, an evening jog was much needed to clear my head and get some air.

I parked my car and got out. My two friends came running, but today I was too indifferent to them. The stress at work had done its job well, it seemed. I ignored them and left for my workout. While on the track, my heart wasn’t at ease as my thoughts went back to the kids. Somehow, I didn’t feel good about myself. But what was done, was done! After all, they were just two little kids- whose’ names too, I had not known. I guess, it never occurred to me that I hadn’t asked them at all.

I soon finished my jog and reached for my car keys in the pocket as I returned to my car. I saw the two kids sitting on the bonnet of my car. Wasn’t expecting that at all. As I approached near, one of them questioned me with a gloomy face, “Aap naraaz ho kya hum se?” That one innocent question was enough to make me realise, that I had been so unfair to them. Soon, I apologised and gave them their biscuits. And finally, I enquired their name. Raja and Amit then told me about their day’s events and I had a good time, indeed. Soon, I left for home with a smile on my face.

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Sometimes, all we need, is a little reminder of how beautiful life is. If we have pain, we certainly don’t have to be one. Everyday, we must reach out to someone. Everyday, we must breathe out a bit of love.

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The Midnight Symphony!

It’s quarter past 1 at night. With the early winter breeze blowing and the slight light coming from the street lamp at a distance, a night person like me cannot ask for more to have the perfect ambience. After a long day’s work nothing soothes me more than the sound of my xylophone. So, I bring it out and start to play. The notes go haywire for a while, but soon I set my hands in the rhythm of the melody n play! Ah, my mind is traveling to a parallel universe it seems. The melodious vibrations striking softly onto my ears give me the eternal joy. I can feel the peaceful calm of the breeze being personified by the symphony surrounding me. A million thoughts cross my mind but I succeed to surpass them.
My eyes shut, hands in the repetitive motion and the sweet early winter breeze kissing my cheeks and caressing my hair, I find my heaven in my garden. Just then I realize, no matter what all went through the day, I am happy now. How insignificant and minute my problems seem to me at this moment.

The night’s stillness has me engrossed in its wraps. With my eyes closed, my thoughts are now flowing in some unknown and unexplored direction. Can it be possible? I ask myself. I am drawn to the ideas which once seemed far fetched. But it is happening. I am looking at a wider horizon. The possibility of the change, the possibility of a newer and a fresh tomorrow seems tangible now. The disappointment of past tragedies and failure sheds away. I am a new me. With a whole new vibe of positivity I open my eyes. A faint smile appears on my face. My hands come to a pause immediately and my xylophone gets a rest. And now I hear the sweetest melody of all, the one my heart makes now. Oh! This midnight symphony I’d missed since far too long, and today I hear it again!

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Only when you can hear someone’s heartbeat, you can experience the most beautiful melody. 

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It Will Be OKAY!

“If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s this: We all want everything to be okay. We don’t even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough.”
-David Levithan

Isn’t it so true? If you ponder over it, you actually realize, all that you really want in life is for things to be okay.

And for that, one must believe in possibilities. I would rather say, one must keep finding possibilities. That’s the essence for life, to keep it steady and moving ahead. There are times when we find ourselves in situations which we cannot turn or undo or escape from. But there cannot be any situation; moreover, there shouldn’t be any situation that pulls you down, to an extent where you think it’s the end, apart from your death itself.

So if you’re left ditched by a friend at the last hour; thrown out of your dream job; abandoned by your lover or no matter what, it isn’t the end of life. Find possibilities, the ones which you might have overlooked or ignored for a long time. Be a fighter. We already have too many losers round the globe, you don’t want to increase the count. So, have faith in the universe. And trust me when i say this, ‘everything happens for the best’. You just need to be patient to find the goodness underlying it.

But keep looking! Somewhere, somehow, someone, something will come to your aid. And things will be okay, really okay. And that’s more than enough.

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“You may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you can know, who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it.”

“No matter what happens or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.”

-Maya Angelou

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FINDING ANSWERS? No more!

‘Ignorance is Bliss’

True that. Hell, yeah!

Sometimes it’s good to remain a jackass and not know all the things. To stay in dark is peaceful sometimes. Well definitely better than to know the bitter truth, atleast! Some questions are best when left unanswered, some doubts are better as self than cleared.

We all face situations where we start to look for answers. There’s nothing wrong with that. But not always knowing everything seems to be healthy for our own selves. We need to find courage to let it go sometimes; letting go of the questions which we know might hurt bad; be devastating; trust breaking; making us fall on to our faces and leave nothing else in the end but scars. All that is important is to make peace with that state of mind of ours. To stay content. To feel blessed.

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To let go, is to fear less.
To let go, is to believe more.
To let go, is to find peace.
To let go, is to love more.

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